Loneliness

Loneliness is a funny thing,
It ebbs and flows like the tide.
A dull ache in your chest,
An inexplicable longing for something just out of reach.
Without warning it arrives,
Defying a crowded room or happy circumstance.
Threatening to smother you in its suffocating embrace,
Uninvited, undefined, indefinitely.

And so the journey begins...

...after a year and a half of thinking I was going through a conversion process, I realized today that it has just begun. Today I decide if I will go on for the sake of the Torah alone.

Tomorrow I will decide again.

The light shines on the path only far enough to see one day at a time. It is the ultimate test of faith. Each day I wonder if I will make it. Each day I learn that, truly, what does not kill you definitely makes you stronger.

Tears are the rain,
Laughter is the sunshine,
Both are required to grow.